em ee

browsing
top down
no patience

what is that?

going?

but how
is always online in the head

the koan trying to break your head in one piece

still wanting to achieve
still not giving up

weariness about so far
the object subject solid as ever

is this going at all?

ever

back to the old patterns
again, as usual, of course

the same anxiety, the same causes
the same feeble attempt to break

but getting sucked in to that old style of reasoning

ideas, thoughts, talk
hope, failure, headache

the key lies in the non-/un-/facts
of abandoning it all,

because this does not work - ever

the American Worker

Is not a Scientist (no mind)
Is not an Engineer (no beauty)
Is a Construction Worker (just wasting energy)

top vs. bottom

some view life as top down
having the ideal expectations on it
causing suffering
e hardew
some view life as bottom up
become close to fatalists
causing suffering

the middle is the hardest
as we want to be binary

ok

so we use concepts inside our minds to reason about the world
this is flawed

as we really cannot grasp the absolute with any method
we try to focus and the attain something
but it is not better than watching tv

we have to let go of all ideas and concepts
just look into the unchartered terrain

realization is in that darkness
and we don't have direct tools for it

simple

ah!