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browsing
top down
no patience

what is that?

going?

but how
is always online in the head

the koan trying to break your head in one piece

still wanting to achieve
still not giving up

weariness about so far
the object subject solid as ever

is this going at all?

ever

back to the old patterns
again, as usual, of course

the same anxiety, the same causes
the same feeble attempt to break

but getting sucked in to that old style of reasoning

ideas, thoughts, talk
hope, failure, headache

the key lies in the non-/un-/facts
of abandoning it all,

because this does not work - ever